/u/PurpleCrayonDreams Reddit is negative enough without me pounding down too. I’ll just write that life will get harder from this point out. You have to be ready for it. Go on a spiritual journey, read the great minds, read self help, get therapy, etc. Keep on trying things that will make you more resilient. Perhaps if you tell us some of the things you are having trouble with we can make suggestions if you are open to problem solving instead of just needing to vent. Good luck brother/sister.